Catch Up!

I knew when I made this blog, that I'd get really into it and then lose interest. It happens with so many things. For instance this month alone. I kind of want a puppy. A few weeks ago I was obsessed with the idea. I would spend too much of my free time between school and work looking at puppies for sale in my area. And although I sort of, ever so slightly still want a puppy. I'm not obsessed anymore. Which is probably for the best. Another example. At the beginning of the month I saw a sign for the Theta 5K. It's something I know my sister has come up and done with her sister inlaw a few times. I decided I wanted to do it. I hate running... But I love how I feel after I do it. So for a good week or so I started running a lot to prepare for this 5k. But then for a good week or so I didn't do anything. Well the 5k is on Saturday. I may not have the motivation I had before, but I'm still determined to follow through with this one. It'll be my first 5k. And I know I won't run the whole thing. I'm not even going to pretend. I hate running. I'm just determined to finish it. And no matter the results compared to everyone else I'm going to be proud of myself. Because I used to not even be able to run a mile. I remember coming home from softball at the beginning of freshman year and crying my eyes out because they made us run a mile and it was so hard for me. I'm horrible with my commitments, that was my point. Along with that, I was catching up with the things I haven't blogged about because of my commitment issues.

When I said I've been obsessed with getting a puppy, I mean I've been obsessed. There's a lot more pictures than this....

But then when I go to Mallory and Chrissy's apartment where they have Woody it calms my obsession down a little bit. He was in his kennel because he was a bad puppy...

The last weekend of spring break most of the family (excluding Michael, Stephen, Chris, and Bailey) went up to Dallas. It was great. It always is! I love my family. Even though it can get pretty crazy. And who could resist those cute little kids!! The 4 youngest ones were there. So cute! <3
Mom, Dad, Jenny and I got there Thursday night. Billy, Kristine, Elizabeth and Brody were already there. And we just hung out and then went to bed. I worked all day so I was exhausted. Then Friday, Jenny worked most of the day. The main thing I remember doing is going grocery shopping with everyone. 4 little kids and 7 adults. (It's still hard to consider myself an adult. I had a hard enough time remembering I was 18, and now I have to remember that I'm 19!) And Friday night Jenny came with me to my friend's wedding reception. When the she walked into the room, I'm not gonna lie I teared up. She was glowing and it was absolutely beautiful. I'm so happy for her!! Saturday was St. Patrick's day. And I got to have a matching green bow with my nieces :) The guys had a stake golf tournament that they went to. Billy ended up getting a prize driver? for having the longest drive? Pardon my golf lingo. That stuff goes over my head. While they were out doing that we took the kids to a magic show. It was pretty cheesy, but everyone enjoyed it. So that sounds pretty successful to me! And then Sunday morning we left and it was back to the real world for me. I always hate that part :(
Yes I'm sure I'm missing lots of parts, but that's what I get when I don't update soon enough, I forget things.

So here's some pictures of the trip:

They like to stick their tongues out in pictures...

Alyssa

Brody

The wedding present I made for Liz and her husband

So glad I got to see her :)

They are too cute!!

Sissa :)

Aunt Je and the twins

There's that tongue again!

With our matching bows for St. Patrick's Day

At the magic show

Enjoying the magic show!

Some bluebonnet pictures. I love their little personalities!

All the girls

He found some boots at Target that he really liked. He was ready to take them home!

And this is what we do when the kids are sleeping....

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Since Dallas it's just been the normal school and work routine. Oh and maybe a few new purchases :)

I liked these, but ended up getting the navy ones.

These ones are on the way :)

Unfortunately now I'm broke. Well not quite yet... But maybe if I keep telling myself that I'll stop spending money... maybe ;)

So I guess for now that's all to catch up on :)

The Impossible

It's time for a rant. I need a good, healthy rant. So here it goes....
Yesterday while driving, a song that I haven't heard in a very long time came on the radio. It's called The Impossible by Joe Nichols. If you don't know it, you should definitely take a listen here.
Anyways so the part that's always caught my attention has been the chorus:

Unsinkable ships, sink
Unbreakable walls, break
Sometimes the things you think would never happen
Happen just like that
Unbendable steel, bends
If the fury of the wind is unstoppable
I've learned to never underestimate
The impossible


Yesterday I also realized that it had been a year since my world was completely changed. So it was kind of perfect that that song came on because learning to never underestimate the impossible was one of the main things I learned. Well let's be honest, I didn't learn it a year ago... it took quite some time for the lesson itself to set in, but because of what happened a year ago I learned the lesson. I know, I'm young and naive... But so far in my life that has been the most life changing experience I've had. I had at least the next 5 years of my life planned out... and most of it involved a stupid boy. In all honesty, even with my experience of things not working out, I still don't see anything wrong with my plans. That's where the song comes in. The (at the time what I would've considered) impossible, had happened. We had been dating for over a year, it was some what long distance. By this point he was a freshman at UH and I was a senior in high school out in Katy. Although not far part, we were at different points in our lives. One day we were talking and all of a sudden I realized how much we had changed. When we first started dating, and for the majority of our relationship we wanted all the same things. But at that moment I realized that we no longer did, and I knew it needed to end. That state of mind shows off my way-too-mature-for-my-age kind of thinking. As for my naive self... I was hoping that when I ended it he would miss me and decide to change and we could be together again. Ha... As barely an 18 year old it turned my world upside down and changed every plan I had ever made for my future. Which is quite a catastrophe at that age. And of course after we broke up he told me things that he had been keeping from me and I over reacted and things blew up into a huge dramatic mess. But that's a whole separate issue that I've learned to let go of, because quite honestly it's his life and not mine, and it's all in the past so it doesn't even matter. Again naive, I know, but losing him was the last thing I ever expected to happen. At that point I had never imagined him not being apart of my life. Breaking up with him was one of the hardest things I've done. But the thing is... And I don't know how to put this in words... I honestly didn't do it on my own. I don't remember a lot of what happened the month following the break up. I just remember it being easy to move on. When you know what's right and you make the decision to follow through, you aren't alone. That's another thing I learned. Although that first month was easier than I thought I'd be, I kind of lost it after that when I found out he had a new girlfriend. I don't know, I didn't want him back. It just hurt. That's all. And it continued to hurt, honestly up until the end of summer when I left to move to College Station. At that point I could finally say I was over everything. And today the only thing I regret is that I'll never have that friendship back. I tried. But it's gone. Maybe one day it'll change. But I've stopped planning ahead. I'm okay, I promise. I'm just really good at keeping things in and I needed to let it out. So that's my rant. "I've learned to never underestimate the impossible".

The BIG 19!

Yesterday was my 19th birthday. Not much happened. But I did get to go home. I'm so grateful that I only live an hour and a half from home and that by some miracle I didn't have to work. I had class yesterday morning. Well a test actually. I think I did okay, so hopefully it went well. Then I headed straight for Katy. I can't tell you how many times when I'm driving home from class I want to keep driving on Highway 6 and go to Katy rather than exiting Harvey to go to my apartment. So it definitely felt good to keep driving. I love driving home. I can't really say the same about driving back though. But I love driving away form my worries knowing I'm going to my family and having some time to just crank the music up and drive. I don't know it just a good feeling. I still like the whole music thing on the way back. I just don't like going back to school and work and other things. Haha. But anyways... I got home just in time to get in the car with my Mom so she could go to a meeting in the galleria area. While she was out at her meeting I met up with my sister and we went to lunch. It was really good. We went to Maggiano's. I had heard of it, but this was my first time there. Then we stopped at DSW and had to run an errand for her job. When we got back to her office my Mom was still in the meeting. I think I sat with her for a good half hour or so before my Mom was finally done. Then my Mom had to go to the Scout place to do something for my Dad. Not something I was really looking forward to, but when I got there I found my friend's name on the wall. So I thought that was cool. Then we finally did some things I wanted to do. I fell asleep on the way back to Katy (the exhausting life of a college student :P) and woke up just when we got to Get Personal. Katy has everything! I miss it so much. There's especially no store that comes close to Get Personal anywhere in the Bryan-College Station area. I've been wanting a new make-up bag. Get Personal definitely had more of a Vera Bradley selection than the other places I've been to up here, but I still didn't find any patterns that I liked. So instead I ended up getting a Jon Hart make-up bag. I'm excited! But it's gonna be a while before it gets in. Then we stopped at Ooh La La. Oh my gosh nothing here comes close to Ooh La La!! I found this cupcake place down the street from my apartment. It kind of sucked... They had like 3 different options. And they were just normal sized cupcakes. And not to mention they were more expensive then what you get at Ooh La La. So I was happy to get that too. Katy is seriously a bubble. It has everything you need right there. I miss it so much! So I was happy to be back even if it was for just an afternoon. Not too long after we finally got back to the house, everyone came over for dinner. Nothing too special. Just some fajitas. And then we had cake and ice cream. What kind of birthday cake would it be if it wasn't confetti cake? My family knows me so well :) I ended up staying until like 9:30 because I was finishing up laundry and homework. Then it was back to College Station. I came home to a cute little cookie cake and birthday ribbon from my roommate. Not much happened for my 19th birthday. And I feel pretty much the same as I did when I was the day before when I was 18. But I'm so grateful for the little things. They really to add up to be big things. I didn't take very many pictures, but here's a few:

Mmmm Ooh La La :)

My sweet Brody! I told him to say cheese, he said it really fast so I had to take the picture fast too before I lost his attention. He's getting so big!!

What I came back to :)

Oh and in honor of my turning 19 I decided to get rid of all the high school related stickers on my car....

My passes for junior year parking and for the career center senior year...

The marine sticker was old and flaking off so I finally decided to just take it off :(

And my parking pass for senior year....

Now that I'm a big girl in college I decided to get something still "me", but a little more sophisticated than my old Seven Lakes stickers...

Now I feel even more obligated to go since I have it on the back of my car and all. Haha.

Well that's my 19th birthday. Not much changed from being 18 on March 6th and turning 19 on March 7th. Not much really even happened on March 7th. But I'm grateful for the little things that did happen. And I'm grateful for all the love and support I got. It's a great little reminder to help me to keep pushing forward.

My Hair

So the other night I was with my friends Chrissy and Mallory, and somehow someone came up with the idea to dye my hair. I'm still trying to figure out how they convinced me to let them do it, but they did nonetheless. We went to the store and bought some blonde dye. BLONDE! Again, I don't know how I let them convince me to do it. But they did... And so we dyed my hair blonde. Well we tried to at least. When it was done it was kind of orange... Ew. Haha. So the I went the whole next day with this concoction of yellowish-orange hair. And as soon as I got home from work that night my roommate, Rachael, and I went and bought some brown dye. When we bought this dye we got a medium brown because we figured hey this is the one that is most like what my original color was. No.... We dyed my hair with this dye and I then became a slight ginger. Definitely not okay. Lol. So today we went back to the store and bought the darkest brown they had. I'm finally satisfied with my hair. And I'm so glad I didn't completely screw it up by dying it so much. It's a lot darker than it was, it's almost black. But I liked it, and let's just say the dark hair works much better with me than any of the other colors I've gone through the past few days. I know I'm dramatic about the actual color, but hey this is my hair we're talking about. It's like my trademark or something. Take a look for yourself:

About to dye all of my hair for the first time... Blonde... Yeah, I was nervous.

How it turned out after we did the blonde.

Most of the times I saw my hair was when I looked in the mirror in my bathroom and as you can see the difference from this picture and the one before that the light in there makes a big difference. No wonder I was freaking out. Haha.

Before we dyed it the second time. It really wasn't all that bad. It just really wasn't me. Or at least I wasn't ready to embrace that side of me. Lol.

About to wash the dye out. That color just isn't quite right....

Again it wasn't that bad. But it definitely wasn't me. No ginger Cyndi please. Not even slightly. Thank you!

And the final results. This is much better :)